My devotions lately have taken me to the account of Abraham in Genesis. This time I saw something I’d never seen before.
Let’s trace the story of his life. In chapter twelve God calls Abraham away from his home and family. He leaves dreaming of the incredible promises he had just received. God would bless him, make his name great and make him and his descendants into a mighty nation. Thrilling stuff! Don’t you love it when God excites you with wonderful possibilities?
In Chapter fifteen God assures Abraham that he would have a son of his own and directs Abraham’s gaze into the night sky. “See how many stars there are Abraham. Try to count them if you can, that’s what your offspring will be like.” Talk about joy and elation, can’t you imagine Abraham rushing home shouting with excitement “Sarah, you won’t believe what God just told me! We’re going to have a son! We need to be ready, we need to get you some maternity clothes and let’s start construction on the baby’s room right away. God said it; I believe it, and that settles it!”
Then the years begin to pass but there is no baby. The promise from God becomes harder and harder to believe. “Maybe I misunderstood. Maybe that promise was for somebody else. I do blow it a lot, would God really want to bless somebody like me?” Faith begins to fade and Abraham and Sarah become vulnerable. They want a son and a family and God promised that would happen, but then God waited too long. Eventually the solution becomes obvious. We need to take matters into our own hands. Sarah suggests Abraham sleeps with her servant Hagar; if she becomes pregnant Sarah will raise the child. Obviously not the best solution but it’s better than nothing. Right? Wrong! It was a plan filled with compromise, a work of the flesh that was destined for failure from the start. This only introduces tension and trouble into the home that lasts for years and Sarah never did end up raising the child. The lesson is clear, when we trade God’s plan and His timing for our plan and our timing it never works out.
None of that was new to me, I’ve taught it many times. What stood out this time was two scriptures in chapter seventeen. Abraham is now ninety-nine years old and God once again appears to him guaranteeing that he would be fruitful, that his descendants would become nations and some would be kings. God promises that the land of Canaan would become an everlasting possession for Abraham and the generations of descendants that would come after him. Now here is what struck me, this time there is no excitement, no joy and no faith. Abraham’s response is underwhelming to say the least.
Gen 17:17-18 (NIV) Abraham fell facedown; he laughed and said to himself, “Will a son be born to a man a hundred years old? Will Sarah bear a child at the age of ninety?” (18) And Abraham said to God, “If only Ishmael might live under your blessing!”
What happened here? Is this the result of a dream being obliterated by the passing of time? At one time Abraham believed all that God was saying and it was counted to him as righteousness. (Gen 15:6) Now God gives him these same promises and Abraham can only laugh in unbelief. “Yeah, right! I tried believing all that and it really didn’t work out so well. God loves you and has a wonderful plan for your life, what a joke!” Notice what he says in verse eighteen. “Can’t you just bless Ishmael instead?” Bless my plan God, yours wasn’t all that great. God is still promising great things but Abraham is no longer willing to trust Him for them. He has come to a place of deadness where he doesn’t anticipate much from God any longer. He was now willing to settle for mediocrity.
Can any of you relate? You used to be so excited about the possibilities of walking with God and watching His plan unfold in your life. You clung to the promises and your faith couldn’t be shaken. Now it’s been so long and so little has happened and you’ve grown weary. God seems a million miles away and His promises no longer excite you like they used to. It seems the dream of God’s blessing in your life is dying.
Dear brother and sister in Christ hold on, God is merciful and gracious. He is a loving Father whose affection for you dwarfs your love for your own children. Realize that the wilderness is necessary for your development. Moses is called to be Israel’s deliverer but first must spend time in the desert to develop character. David is promised that he would become king but first must be harassed by Saul to become the kind of man that could be God’s king. Peter is made an Apostle but must be allowed to fail and weep bitterly to fashion humility so he could become the Apostle God desired him to be. There are times when the good Shepherd must lead us through the valley of the shadow of death to take us to the green pastures (Ps 23).
You must believe that even in those times the promises remain. Psalm 23:4 tells us that God is with us when it seems we are walking in the darkness. Psalm 23:6 assures us that God’s goodness and loving kindness relentlessly pursue us all the days of our life, chasing us even into the wilderness. God will never leave us nor forsake us and His actions and motives towards us are always good and loving. I know it doesn’t feel that way all the time but that is the truth. Abraham and Sarah’s dream died and their faith faded until there was barely anything remaining. Yet God is good, He still blessed in His timing and in His way.
Right now you are faced with a couple of choices. You can waste your life worrying about what hasn’t turned out like you thought it would. The other option is to commit your life afresh to God right now, right where you’re at and ask Him to use you for His glory in whatever way He desires. You might just see what an almighty, loving God can do with shattered dreams. Abraham and Sarah did.